Dear Friend,
Guinness,
our cat, tears up the stairs. He does it so fast, the first few
times you see him do it you cannot tell if hes taking them one
or two steps at a time. Its one of those things that, the more
you see it done, the more interesting it appears, not just because
you cannot tell how its done, but also because it is done so
effortlessly. Its not something the cat has practiced or upon
which he has deliberated. Hes just being a cat running up the
stairs.
.
. . Sometimes
I experience my own efforts that way. It doesnt happen that
often, but when it does, its quite satisfying. Its almost
like being a cat, the pinnacle of Gods creation.
.
. . That
cats are the apple of Gods eye shouldnt surprise you.
Certainly cats think they are the best. Who are we inadequate humans
to argue?
.
. . Bobie,
our other cat, just now interrupted my writing by standing in front
of my computer monitor. This was her way of reminding me that, while
cats may be the ultimate of Gods creations, not all cats are
created equal. Some cats are clearly superior to others. While some
cats get attention by running up stairs, others need not stoop so
low. Truly superior being that she is, Bobie simply stands majestically
before me and awaits attention. We sometimes call her The Queen.
.
. . Risking
the ire of masculinists and feminists everywhere, lets call
these two ways of being masculine and feminine, taking note that men
often get attention by doing things while women simply present themselves.
Guinness, incidentally, is a male cat; Bobie, triumphantly female.
.
. . Such
a distinction is, of course, deeply superficial, if only because the
differences between men and women are small compared to their similarities.
Theres no need to remind me that men have breasts (flat, insignificant
breasts) and women, fists. Still, it is often men who create works
of art, in a sense saying Look what I did! and women who
make themselves works of art, in a sense saying Look who I am!
Having made
this risky and ridiculous distinction, I realize now that I want
to talk about something else entirely.
.
. . What
I want to talk about are those times when my efforts are like a cat
running up the stairs, when the results are neither practiced nor
deliberate but are instead surprising and inexplicable.
.
. . When
I started writing about Guinness running up the stairs, I had no intention
of making silly distinctions between masculine and feminine. But then
Bobie interrupted me. Then my writing became, to me anyway, surprising,
inexplicable, and quite satisfying.
Its not as though I dont write deliberately or that I
dont practice. But what gives my efforts life has little to
do with expertise or intention and everything to do with seeking and
finding, of being open to what comes next, of following the clues
to an unforeseen destination.
.
. . Its
not a matter of what I do or who I am but what I find that makes life
worth living. If its necessary to practice and plan, its
also necessary to wonder and explore and pray -- or so I remind myself.
.
. . Look.
Heres a new minute! Heres a new day! Heres a new
millennium! What love and terror will we find?
A
(male) portrait photographer responds:
The masculine/feminine
thing has always interested me from the portraiture point of view:
Yes, a man has no interest in a picture of HIMSELF, but throw in his
car, motorcycle, or speedboat and it's a different story. A woman
generally has zero interest in being photographed with items, they
are distractions to the viewer, who should be focusing entirely on
her. If she can't apply it or wear it, she's not interested in it.
Men are the way they are their whole lives: they would rather have
a photo taken with their Harley than their family! Women have no use
for the Harley, the family is their creation. Women are the engines
of the world of portraiture. Without women, I am nothing.
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